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August 01 Hey everyoneHello all you people that are so wonderful to me. Thank you for all the great comments and congrats to me. It is much appreciated. I just wanted to swing in and say I am working so much and as a matter of fact I am fixing to go now. I just want to give props to all you mommies that work and can keep the house clean and all up keep done. I am having the hardest time finding time to complete all necessary functions of day to day life. It is making me a little insane. I am no good at finding a schedule that works for me. Each time I have one it seems to have 15 hundred things that come up extra to do. =) So those of you that manage are just incredible. You GO Girls! Oh and Daddy's too.
I miss you guys. I will find time to see everyones blog and catch up so much better. Don't forget me, because I need a good support system. So now I will go tuck my kids into bed.
ttyl tif July 26 i did wellI passed and now I am working. Actually I have been up for 26 hours now. I am exhausted, but it's worth it to me. Thanks for the support and I will go into detail when I can hold my eyes open.
=) July 24 wish me luckOk! Today I am going to take my state board. I know my profile says I am already a nursing assistant, but I figure I should be optimistic about it. I am going to actually take the test today. The state test. I aced the class, but that does not help with how nervous I am. I am shaking, literally shaking. OK...I know that I can do this. I am just putting it in God's hands now. If it is his will, I will be a TRUE certified nursing assistant. Then I can do my job without worrying about this test anymore. =)
Stay positive all, and I will too....I will tell you how I did tonight. =) July 21 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEHAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! TODAY I AM 26...BUT I DON'T LOOK IT =)
OK! I WILL PROBABLY NOT DO MUCH FOR MY BIRTHDAY, BECAUSE I HAVE FINALLY PLANNED MY GIRLS BIRTHDAY PARTY, AND MY JOB IS TO MAKE THEIR DAY (TOMORROW) SPECIAL. BUT I STILL LOVE SAYING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
SO I FINALLY POSTED A FEW BEFORE AND AFTER PICTURES. WELL THEY ARE NOT AFTER, BECAUSE THESE WERE TAKEN A LITTLE OVER A MONTH AGO, AND I HAVE LOST A GOOD BIT MORE SINCE THEN. BUT THEY DO SHOW A SIGNIFICANT DIFFERENCE IN MY WEIGHT, ESPECIALLY IN MY FACE. =)
RIGHT NOW I SHOULD BE SLEEPING, BUT I JUST COULD NOT GET THROUGH THE NIGHT. I WAS UP TOSSING AND TURNING AND IT WAS DRIVING ME SO CRAZY THAT I JUST WOKE UP A 3:45. I DID MY WORKOUT, TOOK A SHOWER, AND NOW I AM ON THE COMPUTER. WOW! I PROBABLY WON'T BE WORTH A WHOLE LOT AT WORK TODAY. THAT IS A LITTLE SAD.
THINGS HAVE BEEN A LITTLE BETTER. MY SISTER=IN=LAW HAS BEEN STAYING ELSEWHERE, BUT SHE DID NOT TAKE ANY OF HER STUFF. THIS MEANS THAT IN ORDER FOR ME TO GET IT OUT OF MY LIVING ROOM, I AM GOING TO HAVE TO MOVE IT FOR THEM. THAT JUST ISN'T RIGHT. =) I DON'T MIND THOUGH AS LONG AS IT IS MOVING OUT. THINGS SHOULD BE GETTING ON A REGULAR SCHEDULE SOON.
MY GIRLS WILL BE STARTING SCHOOL IN A FEW WEEKS. WELL ALIA GOING BACK AND TARYN JUST BEGINNING. I MUST CRY WHEN I THINK OF BOTH MY GIRLS BEING SO BIG ALREADY. YOU BETTER ALL MAKE SURE YOU ARE UTILIZING EVERY MINUTE OF YOUR KIDS YEARS. THEY JUST BLOW BY. MY SIX YEAR OLD IS TOO OLD FOR ME TO DO THINGS FOR HER NOW. SHE BELIEVES SO ANYWAY. NOT THAT I MIND A LITTLE INDEPENDENCE, BUT GEE SHE IS JUST TOO BIG NOW. =)
FLORIDA HAS TAX FREE WEEK STARTING TOMORROW. THIS IS A GREAT THING. WE GET TO BUY SCHOOL SUPPLIES AND CLOTHES WITH NO TAX. I AM A LITTLE SUPRISED THEY STILL DO THIS, AND ACTUALLY THEY DO IT TWICE NOW. WE HAVE A TAX FREE WEEK FOR HURRICANE PREP STUFF AS WELL. THAT SAVED US SOME MONEY ON OUR GENERATOR.
I AM RAMBLING.
MY MOM IS TAKING ME TO DINNER TONIGHT. A BIRTHDAY TREAT I GUESS. IT IS NICE THAT SHE IS, BUT I HAVE A LOT TO DO. I AM GOING TO HAVE TO LEARN THAT TAKING A LITTLE TIME OFF FOR FUN IS OK. WHY DO I TORTURE MYSELF? =)
SO I GUESS NOW THAT I HAVE BEEN UP FOR A FEW HOURS, I WILL NOW HAVE SOME GREEN TEA AND START A USUAL ROUTINE. SEE YA AROUND THE SPACES.
TIFFANY
July 17 good nightI have been looking at everyone elses sites tonight, so now I have gotten too sleepy to write everything going on. Just let me sleep, and I will catch up later. Good night!  July 14 ON A ROLE!!I went to work today, and I did well. My time was faster and everything. I can't explain what all that means, but anyway...I did so well. Tonight I had a jewelry party. I made a good sum of money for me. That is all extra money for the girls birthday party. They are so rotten.
So MY birthday is coming up soon. I am so ready. I do not get a lot of presents or anything, it's just the point that it is a day just for me. And I do not acknowledge that there are actually other people in the world that were born on the same day. As a matter of fact I actually tell me that they are not aloud to have their babies on my day. It sounds so mean, but if they did have them on July 21st, I would be nice about it. I would also make the announcment that July 21st is for Tiffany. =) I just have always loved birthdays. My husband never really had birthdays growing up, so he does not understand why I go all out for our girls. Well this is how I look at it. We celebrate life everyday, just be being here. BUT we could not be here if we were not born, and for that there is a day. Why not make the most of the day that brought us into the world? I feel that this is a way I can tell my kids that there are things in life worth looking forward to. I just love it. I am so excited.
I am so sleepy. I know that my blog is all over the place. I just can't help it.
Now if you have made it this far into my blog then I know you care enough to ask a question. What is the best way to let people know it is time to go? I love my family...my sister-in- law is here along with her fiance. I repeat, I love them. I don't want them to feel unwanted, I just need my house back. You can't understand really unless you see my house. It is so small, and with the couch bed pulled out in the living room there just is not any room to walk. It is absolutely crazy.
ANyway, if you know how to break it to them, let me know.
Thanks, Tif =)I just had to get online to say that
today I weigh 159...that is the best yet. I am under 160. Off to work now so I will check in later.
=) July 13 Hello all you great bloggers!!Have I mentioned that I have a birthday coming up? I am so excited....I am going to actually be 26, and that is so excited. I am on the backside of my twenties. WOW! I am still in shock that there are only two years until my ten year high school reunion.
SOOOOO! I am back on my go me! Today I put on this pair of jeans that were hidden in the closet. They have been hiding for a while. I truly did not think I was going to be able to get in them. I DID! I put them on and I am just like a kid in a candy store.
Well! NOW I get to go and actually buy an outfit. I am not going to buy much, but I think I am ready to buy something that fits. I have been wearing all of my clothes that are way too big. They are horrible. Anyway! I am just all over the place today! I love being this excited...plus it keeps my mind off any bad stuff that might be running around in there.
So this is all for now...I will catch up more later.
Tif July 11 A dayToday was education day, and it was so boring. By law we have to have so many hours on the book each year in order to keep our licenses. The worst part about that is that the hours are these horribly boring videos. Old ones. The kind they never update. It reminds me of the one that we had to watch in sex ed in school. The difference is that when in school for sex ed all of the giggly kids laughed at the sex talk. There was no funny instances in our videos. It was just boring.
Anyway...I want to throw a little love out to my husband. He is a remarkable fellow. I do not know what I would do with myself if I didn't have him here. He has just been wonderful at holding me together. I must be the luckiest girl in the world. He even does housework when I am away. I am so thankful for that because it is impossible for me to keep up with it all.
I guess I am not saying much of anything important or interesting for you guys today, but I just wanted to say hello.
July 10 Here is a list of some my weight loss secretsSo I have had a few people ask me about my weight loss secrets. I do not think the things I do are secrets. It is all normal things. I can give ya some ideas and things I did that I feel contributed.
1. DO NOT DIET. MAKE A LIFESTYLE CHANGE.
Dieting is a mistake. I have been on so many diets. I might lose a pound here and there, but it always comes back if I stop dieting. So a lifestyle change is the way to go. It makes you live a healthier life, and it can help your family follow in your footsteps. My entire family eats like I do. I have those kids that say, "No we do not eat MeDonalds, because Subway is a much healthier choice."
2. QUIT DRINKING ALCOHOL.
This was hard for me. I love wine. I am a taster. I did not want to give it up, but this was an important decision for me. I was on the verge of alcoholism. Now I do not even try it. I have the beginnings. By that I mean that if I have just one drink...I want more and more. Then I do not stop until I am wasted, and most times, I do not remember how I got there.
Well this is an important part in a lifestyle change because alcohol contains empty calories. They give you useless calories that are almost impossible to burn. Since most people drink at night...these calories seem to stick as you sleep.
3. STAY AWAY FROM FAST FOOD
I used to just go through drive throughs all the time. As a way of convenience I would stop and get a burger. So much a problem. When in a hurry I stop at a grocery store that carries healthier ready to eat meals. (like grilled fish). I also keep fruit or veggies on hand for snacking.
4. DON'T EAT AFTER 7PM.
Your body burns calories while you sleep. If you eat right before bed, then your body burns the calories just entered into your body. The stored calories are what needs to be burning.
5. MAKE SMALL CHANGES.
If you drastically change everything at once...you are more likely to stop eating this way. Then because of cutting drastic calories..your metabolism is slower and that makes you put your weight back on quicker. This was a mistake I made more than once.
6. RELAX 20 MINUTES A DAY.
If you are too stressed the cortisol in your body makes you crave sweets. I have made myself sit alone, and think of absolutely nothing for atleast 20 minutes. It helps my body maintain a regular flow. I need that.
7. SLEEP AT LEAST 8 HOURS.
Sleep deprivation makes you feel hungry when your not, and makes it so you do not know when you are full. I have got to a point where it is almost impossible for me to function on less than 8 hours a night.
I do not know if this is at all helpful to any one out there. I just know that is has made my life a much happier place to be since I started taking my weight off. Just the fact that I am down so much since I started is what makes me grin. I am almost to the point of posting before and after, but I want to lose a little more.
Thanks for stopping in.
Hello everyoneHello all! I hope things are good all around. I am so happy to be off work today. Maybe I can catch up on Mommy time. I also have studying to do and such. Life is getting so much better. One day at a time. I know that after such a horrible thing all the petty things that were bothering me from day to day seem so insignificant now. I am truly more thankful for so many more things. I just wanted to drop by. I need to get to my girls now. Smiles all around! July 08 The gifts he gaveMy Kyler is gone, but he left gifts for other little children. I am so proud to say...
His little lungs went to a 4 year old boy from Illinois. He has been waiting for the last four months. He like to have books read to him. He loves his toy cars and blocks. They say he is recovering and all the medical team are optimistic.
Kyler's liver, pancreas, adn intestine saved the life of a 2 year old male from south Florida. He has been suffering from severe abdominal disease and was waiting for two months. He is recovering and is expected to make a full recovery.
Kyler's set of kidneys saved the live of a gentleman in south Florida. He had been suffering severe kidney disease. he had been waiting for a year. Now he is to make a full recovery and will be off dialysis.
I am so proud to be the aunt of the baby that is saving all of these lives by giving his own. I would definitly be selfish if I had the choice. I would so bring my Ky-Ky back.
Well thanks for listening. I needed to let everyone know how great he is. July 07 fridayToday I am making myself better. I am using my grief to be angry at all those around me. Today I know that I have been in the wrong. I am stresses and that is just the fact, but I know that God would not put more on me than I can handle. He is just showing be that life is not always easy. I do know that there are many people out there who have things worse than me.
There is an upside to my Kyler being gone. He donated his organs. Do you know that his little parts can save up to seven other children? He could be living on in many people.
Today was my Alia's birthday...she is 6 now. I am so proud of her.
I really felt bad when we were all celebrating in front of my sister-in-law. I know that her son is gone, but I see know reason not to still celebrate life.
I am at a point of truly doing just that. I want to live every minute to the fullest. I am trying to just pull through, but I am so worried about my girls. I am so scared that they might not wake up the next morning. That is what makes me soooo paranoid. I just can not picture a day without them.
Well I guess this is weird after my ranting yesterday...I sometimes think I am crazy. Yesterday I was blowing up. I was so mad, and just frustrated. Now I am more vibrant. Jessie says I am going through stages to get back to our normal life. I just do not know how to be normal right now. I will figure it out in the long run.
July 06 I am back...at least for nowI have been away for a while. I am trying to get back to normal. There has been a huge disaster in my family. My beautiful baby boy (nephew) died. He was only 2 and a half. I do not know how to deal with such a horrible thing. Kids are not supposed to die. Though he is not my child...I feel almost as if I have lost my own, and on top of that I do not know how I would handle such a thing. I am going crazy now. Emotional breakdowns at work. Flipping out at home. My sister-in-law and her husband have now moved into my home, and that is not helping matters. They have no where to go, but my house is sooooo little. They are living in my family room. I hate that just to pee I have to walk passed them. A week, is what I thought they would be here..now they are just squatting. How do I get them out? I know I am ranting, but this is how I get my mind off of Kyler. I just can not believe he is gone. I thought his Mom would come out of her little welfare world, and at least try. I had to take care of all the baby's arrangements, and I can't stop crying still. I know we all grieve differently. I just do not understand. She acts like she doesn't care. I just want the jerk that did it to pay. Oh yeah...I didn't tell you, he died from shakin baby syndrome. That is what the doctor said. Of course they are doing an ongoing investigation, but more than one doctor said so. I just can't get over it. My wonderful boss tried to get me time off of work, but I would rather be there right now. I am getting on my babies nerves, because I go and wake them at all hours to make sure they are still breathing. Kyler just quit breathing while asleep. It was due to the slow blood leaking into his brain, but I am just so scared my girls are not going to wake up.
Will I come out of this? June 19 HFDGood Morning...I am in a hurry, but I hope all you dad's had a wonderful Father's Day. And for all the Mom's who play both roles...a happy Father's Day to you too. Ya'll are the ones who get two parent days. =) June 15 OK I am doing good nowMY RN WAS CORRECT! I REWEIGHED EARLY THIS MORNING AND I WAS NOT AS HUGE AS I THOUGHT YESTERDAY. =) =) HAPPY (= (=
I AM ECSTATIC ABOUT MY CERTIFICATION. IN ABOUT 15 DAYS, I WILL HAVE A CAREER STARTED. MY FRIENDS THINK I AM CRAZY FOR GOING TO SCHOOL FOR TWO THINGS. I AM INTERESTED IN LAW AS WELL AS NURSING. NOT JUST THAT!! THE LAW CLASSES ARE TEACHING ME A LOT OF THINGS ABOUT HOW TO GO ABOUT THINGS IN MY JOB. I DO NOT WANT TO BE SUED BY THE PEOPLE I AM TAKING CARE OF. I AM JUST BECOMING A BETTER PERSON IN MYSELF. I NEVER THOUGHT OF HOW GOOD I COULD FEEL. I DID NOT EVEN THINK IT WAS POSSIBLE. ALL THIS TIME I HAVE BEEN AT HOME WITH MY GIRLS. I HAVE LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. YET I HAVE BEEN HIDING FROM THE WORLD. NOW I AM IN IT. I AM WORKING, SCHOOLING, AND TAKING CARE OF MY FAMILY. I HAVE ALSO STARTED TAKING MY KIDS TO CHURCH. IT IS LIKE I HAVE ALL OF A SUDDEN STARTED WANTING TO BETTER MYSELF FOR MY FAMILY'S SAKE. I JUST WISH I WOULD HAVE DONE THIS AGES AGO. OH WELL...
SMILE YOU GUYS!
LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!! Good MorningHello all you wonderful bloggers. It seems that these days you guys probably know me better than a lot of the people I see every day. I get discouraged when I do not get a chance to blog. This morning I am up and ready. I have to get the girls up in a minute, but wanted to check in and make sure that everyone has a wonderful day.
Do not forget that the glass is half full. It is important to start the day with optimism. Do not let me fool you. I am just as cranky and out of sorts in the morning. I just have to tell myself that it is going to be a wonderful day. Sometimes this really does work. I have had a few days that it does not matter how I try to start my day...it is inevitable that the results are going to be bad.
I also have a talent. I can look happy, and feel like the world is caving. Yet this seems to be fading from me. Yesterday, we were studying our clinicals. Weight was on the agenda, and mine was not right. I started crying...in front of my class. How immature...I just could not look at that scale without freaking. I have been trying so hard to lose, and to see the numbers go up, just exasperated me. I PANICKED! Then my RN walks over and says Tiffany, I have watched you drink three bottles of water. This is not your correct weight. Come in the morning and we will see what it says then.
So I am going to see if the scales are tipping back in the right direction. I do not want to lose the same five pounds over again. It was hard enough to lose them the first time.
Oh and so far all together I have lost 67 pounds.
=)
Smile it makes the day and everyone around you seem better. June 12 blogthings***Your Values Profile***
Loyalty: You value loyalty highly.
You're completely devoted to your friends and family. Even if they totally screw up, you're still there for them. Just make sure they're equally loyal to you! Honesty:
You value honesty highly.
You're unflinchingly honest, even when it's not easy. For you, integrity is very important - in yourself and others. People may not always like what you say, but they know they can trust it. Generosity:
You value generosity highly.
So much so that you often put your own needs last. There's nothing wrong with having a caring heart... But you may want to rethink your "open wallet" policy. Humility:
You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are. And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better. You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low. Tolerance:
You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you... You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends. You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them. June 10 This caught my eye todayDUSTY BIBLES LEAD TO DIRTY LIVES
We have been going to lectures at church, and they are truly leading me in the path of righteousness. I am learning so many things about life and about myself. It is so amazing how blinded I have been by worldly things. Do not get me wrong...I still want things, but it is not all that is important to me.
As I was coming home a few minutes ago, I passed a church with this sign on it. Dusty Bibles Lead To Dirty Lives. This is amazingly true. No matter how hard we try to believe we know all there is to know..we don't. There is always more to learn in the Bible. If there are questions in life, then turn to this book for your answers. I know that I have lived most of my life in sin. Not just sin, but I knew that I was going in the wrong direction. Why? Well it was more fun. Now I am more fulfilled than I ever was. It is amazing.
Do you think I sound all high and mighty? I am not. I am humble. I am just going through so much, and as crazy as it sounds coming from me...God is the only thing that keeps me stable.
We are learning some amazing things in our lectures. The entire weekend is on the home.
Friday night was God's Standard for the Home and Man's Role in the Home. Both of these were eye openers for me. There are some things I did not know were expected of us.
Today we listened to Marriage, Divorce, and Remarriage, then Woman's Role in the Home, Evolution and how it Effects the Home, Dating, and Selecting a Mate.
Well the last two we stayed for even though we have already selected each other. We now know how to guide our daughters through the process of picking young boys to date. The funny thing is that when we dated and picked each other we were sinners. We went through all our processes backwards, but luckily enough we did a good job on picking each other, because we are both at the same point in our lives. Job, School, And Religion at the same point. This is a good thing for us. It amazes me when people laugh at us for still acting like newlyweds. This is something we do very often and well I do not see the point of being married to someone that does not want to be newlyweds forever. My grandparents (who have always been members of the church) are still giggly and they have been married almost 50 years. I want that.
So I guess my on and on is enough to scare anyone away. But I am so full of joy and love for so many things right now. Maybe I should spend every Saturday at church just to get fulfillment. It is a blessing that God has watched over me all of this time.
June 09 Recipesi am trying to bake some cookies tonight. i have played around with some healthy cookie recipes that will be good for the diabetic people at church. we are having our lectures this weekend, and of course I did not plan what I was going to bring. now I am up at 11p, trying to get things made. no big deal. the kids are in bed, so at least they won't be too cranky. the world is always throwing more things my way. eventually i will catch up with myself, and all in life will be feng shui. is there such a thing?
i did learn some good things tonight at our lecture. it is a study on God's plan for the home. the man's role is what we studied tonight. brought a few things into light. we also learned a few things about raising our children. i think i am doing an ok job. that is a good feeling. i just hope i teach them all the things they truly need to know in life to make good decisions.
a funny story...
i had to go and take my drug test for work. well of course i could not find anyone to watch my kids. so as i explain that i have to pee in a cup so they can see i don't do drugs...my Alia says, mommy your work is crazy. i said, "why?" she says, "you don't do drugs...you are good. you don't smoke them nasty cigarettes either. you used to but not anymore." i just laughed at her. after they have come out with all these commercials about kids i talk to mine about everything. so telling my girls i had a drug test, clicked that light on the said "wait a minute..
mom said only bad people do drugs." which is kind of what i said, but not really. the thing is..if that is what she got out of it then at least she is in the mind set of NOT doing drugs.
well...my cookies are kind of gross. i am not a very good suzie homemaker. i guess that has been obvious from the word go. oh well...good night...sleep tight...i know i will. |
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