I have this thing with reading celebrity magazines, and as I go through their lives I always wish I could just have a taste of it.  I know they complain about not having any privacy but there is just something about the whole thing.  I have always wanted to be someone famous.  To have people look up to me.  Well today I had a light hit me.  I am so important.  I have two beautiful daughters, three nieces, and many other small children that look to me daily for the way to go.  I have to show them how to grow into beautiful smart independent women.  That is my job.  My purpose in life is being the Mom.  I like that job.  I have this vision of being the cute soccer Mom in the mini van.  That is soooo me.  I was all the kids on the team to want to hang out at my house while I make the cookies and brownies.  I want the sleep over house where we all cram in the kitchen to make waffles the next morning.  Does this sound too silly?  I almost feel that working is going to take this time away from my girls, but then I think about it.  This is my way of showing them that working does not mean you can not have a wonderful family life.  I still have time to love and hold them.  I am still the one to help with homework.  I still tuck you in and read the bedtime stories.  I am the woman that you will be able to claim as your mother.  I will do all in my power to be here and there at once.  I will do all I can to make my kids just as proud of me as I am of them.  I do not want my kids to regret that I am their mom.  When they look around and see the children in our family who do not have parents to truly care for them, they will be even more happy that I never left.  To top it off my wonderful husband is here by my side.  Loving the three of us with all of his being.  We will definitely be in the odd side of things as the parents who are still married.  So many kids are now being raised by divorced parents.  I do know that in many cases this is the best way to go.  Marraiges just don't always work.  I think I am just lucky.  I believe that God has been watching over me.  Though many things are not in my favor, he has made sure to give me a family to love and care for.  He let me know my purpose.  He has let me see the wonderful person I can be.  I no longer wish to be anyone else.  I love me.  I am happy to be me.  Inside and out.