So much has been going on in my life.  I have not had time to do anything except work and sleep and oh yeah we moved.  That is taking a toll on the sleep I am getting because I am trying to organize a new house. 

So I still love my job.  Well I love what I do.  The way some people are doing me is wrong, but I know that you are never going to be able to work with staff that is all 100% dedicated to doing their job correctly.  I have learned that in many places in life.  I have not lost anyone yet and that I am thankful for.  I love my residents.  I have one that draws me pretty pictures and even though her hands shake now she manages to do such a wonderful job. 

We have been short on staff lately and that makes for a rough time.  I am usually assigned 16 people.  That is a sufficient amount to keep clean and tidy.  Yet lately I have been in charge of anywhere between 25 and 30 people.  That makes my time their a bit of a nightmare because I can not get to everyone in time.  This makes me feel neglectful.  I am ok though.  It works in the long run.  All the people that I care for and my supervisor know that I am trying my best.

 

My girls are still growing.  They seem to have people such different people since school started.  They are just little grown-ups.  Alia is starting to get a bit of an attitude and seems to think she can get away with talking back.  We have kept her in check though.

 

I must get some sleep, but I hope to be back to my blogging self soon.  I miss this.

Hello all of you wonderful bloggers.  I just wanted to first say thank you to all the comments I had.  I have been trying to get back with everyone, but sometimes this thing just will not let me work.  =) 

 

Now onto the new things in my life.  My job is taking me over.  Not really.  I really like it.  I have just worked off this morning and now I am tired, but I do not want to go to sleep yet for the simple fact that I do not have to work tonight.  I am so excited to crawl in bed next to my wonderful husband. 

To anyone who has to put their parents or grandparents in a nursing home.  Please be sure to research the place.  I love my place of employment.  We are the top home for long term care in pensacola, Fl.  I am proud to be an employee there.  I just have recently heard of some things going on in other homes that really bother me.  I can not understand how anyone actually abuses their residents.  I have only been working for a short period of time, but I already love my people.  I feel like they are my family.  I imagine that once I grow old..I might have to go to a home.  In a way I want that so I do not burden my kids later in life.  I think about how I want to be treated.  Will they let me lay there and get pressure sores?  Will they let me fall?  I mean sometimes it is not preventable, but some situations are just outrageous.  I am just rambling.

 

OK!  Phase 2!!  I am so proud of my little Taryn.  Her teacher sent me a letter all about how smart my baby is.  She is so impressed with the way she writes altready.  =)  I am so excited.  The reason she knows so much is because my Alia has taught so much.  She has showed Taryn so much.  My beautiful girls.

 

Phase 3....CPS did not do anything about my mother-in-law and sister-in-law.  They did not have drugs in their system by the time they went to drug test them.  Supposedly they are going to drop back by.  This state is just not here for the kids.  I will never understand.  Hopefully justice will be done before it is too late for my lil sis, and the unborn nephew.  How do they choose such horrible things over their kids?  It is not normal.

 

Well I better get up off this chair and do some housework.  It is not going to do itself.  =)  Later

I have this thing with reading celebrity magazines, and as I go through their lives I always wish I could just have a taste of it.  I know they complain about not having any privacy but there is just something about the whole thing.  I have always wanted to be someone famous.  To have people look up to me.  Well today I had a light hit me.  I am so important.  I have two beautiful daughters, three nieces, and many other small children that look to me daily for the way to go.  I have to show them how to grow into beautiful smart independent women.  That is my job.  My purpose in life is being the Mom.  I like that job.  I have this vision of being the cute soccer Mom in the mini van.  That is soooo me.  I was all the kids on the team to want to hang out at my house while I make the cookies and brownies.  I want the sleep over house where we all cram in the kitchen to make waffles the next morning.  Does this sound too silly?  I almost feel that working is going to take this time away from my girls, but then I think about it.  This is my way of showing them that working does not mean you can not have a wonderful family life.  I still have time to love and hold them.  I am still the one to help with homework.  I still tuck you in and read the bedtime stories.  I am the woman that you will be able to claim as your mother.  I will do all in my power to be here and there at once.  I will do all I can to make my kids just as proud of me as I am of them.  I do not want my kids to regret that I am their mom.  When they look around and see the children in our family who do not have parents to truly care for them, they will be even more happy that I never left.  To top it off my wonderful husband is here by my side.  Loving the three of us with all of his being.  We will definitely be in the odd side of things as the parents who are still married.  So many kids are now being raised by divorced parents.  I do know that in many cases this is the best way to go.  Marraiges just don't always work.  I think I am just lucky.  I believe that God has been watching over me.  Though many things are not in my favor, he has made sure to give me a family to love and care for.  He let me know my purpose.  He has let me see the wonderful person I can be.  I no longer wish to be anyone else.  I love me.  I am happy to be me.  Inside and out.

today everyone said i looked good and boy did that help my self esteem.

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